Nikolai Mikhailovich Rubtsov is a Russian poet who lived a very short life. Like a magnet, he attracted trouble to himself. His fate is deeply tragic, and his poems are unusually beautiful and lyrical.
War childhood and adolescence
Nikolai Rubtsov was born on January 3, 1936 in the city of Yemetsk, Arkhangelsk Region, into a large family. Before the war, the family moved to Vologda, where Nikolai's father was promoted to the city party committee. However, in June 1942, his father was called to war, despite the fact that a terrible tragedy happened in the Rubtsov family. Nikolai's mother - Alexandra Mikhailovna - died suddenly. It turns out that all four young children remain orphans: the mother is dead, and the father is at the front.
Nikolai's father asked his sister Sofya Andrianovna to take the children to her, but she agreed to give shelter only to the eldest of the daughters, and the younger ones were scattered in all directions. Nikolai, together with his younger brother Boris, went to the Kraskovsky orphanage.
Life in an orphanage has never been easy, especially during the wartime famine. It is difficult to imagine how hard it was for Nikolai to get used to a new life. More recently, he lived in a large and close-knit family, next to a loving mother, and now he is completely alone. After some time, he was separated from Boris. They were assigned to different orphanages.
Little Nikolai still hoped that his father would return from the war, and life could get better, but the miracle did not happen. His father married a second time and had new children. He no longer cared about the fate of the children from his first marriage.
After completing the seven-year period, Nikolai left the orphanage and went to enroll in a nautical school in Riga, but even then he was disappointed. The school was accepted from the age of 15, and he was only fourteen and a half. Out of despair, I had to enter a forestry college.
Restless life
After graduating from college, Rubtsov goes to Arkhangelsk, where he gets a job as a fireman's assistant on an old minesweeper. Nikolai did not give up his dream of the sea. He worked on the ship for only one year. After that, Rubtsov comes to the city of Kirov and decides to continue his studies, but he also lasted only one year in the mining technical school.
Rubtsov's long-term wanderings began. He was alone in the whole world. In 1955, Nikolai made an attempt to improve relations with his father, but their meeting did not lead to anything. They did not find a common language, and Rubtsov went to the village of Priyutino to see his older brother Albert.
At the end of 1955, Nikolai Rubtsov was drafted into the army in the Northern Fleet, where he began to write poetry, which began to appear more and more in print.
In 1962, the first collection of poems by Nikolai Rubtsov, Waves and Rocks, was published. In the same year, he successfully passed the exams and entered the literary institute, where he met the future mother of his only daughter. In Moscow, Rubtsov very quickly became known among young poets. Unfortunately, a year later he was expelled from the institute for a fight in which he was not the instigator. After a while, he is restored, but a year later he is expelled again.
A complex, hot-tempered character, and even a fatal addiction to alcohol - all this interfered with Rubtsov in life. He constantly got into scandalous situations, and was always made guilty.
In 1965, his family life cracked. The wife is tired of his drunkenness and lack of money. Rubtsov was published from time to time, but his fees were not enough to support his family.
Rubtsov leaves again to wander around the country. For some time he lived in Siberia, and in 1967 his book "The Star of the Fields" was published, which brought him great fame. He was admitted to the Writers' Union. And, finally, he still graduated from the Literary Institute.
An encounter with death
In 1969, Nikolai met Lyudmila Derbina, who was destined to play a fatal role in the poet's life. They started living together. She was a fan of his poetry. This romance developed very strangely: they constantly diverged, but again something unknown brought them together again. Finally, in 1971, they decided to legalize their relationship.
The marriage registration was supposed to take place on January 19, and a quarrel took place on the 18th. A fatal quarrel that did not stop all day. On the night of January 19, Lyudmila Derbina killed the poet Nikolai Rubtsov during a fight. Shortly before his death, he wrote poems that turned out to be prophetic.
I will die in Epiphany frosts
I will die when the birches crack
And in the spring the horror will be complete:
River waves will pour into the churchyard!
From my flooded grave
The coffin will emerge, forgotten and dull
Will crash with a bang
and in the dark
The terrible wreckage will float away
I myself do not know what it is …
I do not believe in the eternity of peace!
Derbina served five years and seven months in captivity, after which she was amnestied.
